Category: Pen Thoughts

El Roi, The God Who Sees Me

I’m reading this book about the different names of God in the Bible. Today I learned about God’s name El Roi. I learned that it was only used once, by Hagar who had just fled from the mistreatment of her mistress, Sarai. As a servant, she must be so used to being invisible, virtually unseen and unimportant to the people around her. She called God “El Roi”, the God who sees who she is, who sees the circumstances of her life.

 

30 Inks in 30 Days: (Day 2) Akkerman Hopjesbruin

Day 2’s ink for #30inks30days is Akkerman Hopjesbruin. It’s one of my favorite inks because it reminds me of the color of yummy caramel syrup. I use it only with my Kaweco Cognac, not just because the color suits perfectly, but because the ink flows best in this pen. I have never filled this pen with any other ink, I think they’re MFEO. ^_^ Here’s a review of the ink if you’re interested in reading more about it.

“I think love is caramel. Sweet and fragant; always welcome. It is the gentle golden colour of a setting harvest sun; the warmth of a squeezed embrace; the easy melting of two souls into one and a taste that lingers even when everything else has melted away. Once tasted it is never forgotten.” – Jenny Colgan

30 Inks in 30 Days: (Day 1) Organics Studio Foggy Bottom

Honestly, I’m no good at all with daily challenges. I can’t remember ever completing one of those before, but that never stopped me from joining. It is fun to try and see it through to the end. I liked the idea behind Ink Journal’s 30 Inks in 30 Days challenge. Being an ink hoarder, I often compulsively buy colors that I like and then forget about them after a few fills. I tend to gravitate towards my few favorites, only venturing out once in a while to dig around my ink stash. I thought I’d give this challenge a try.

Since it’s June 1st, I guess it’s a good time to start the challenge. For day 1, I am going to use Organics Studio’s Foggy Bottom.

This is my first (and only Organics Studio ink). It’s an interesting color of brown  because it starts out as watery and light, then it becomes darker and more opaque as it dries. It’s a little dry so I use it with my wet nibs. It’s a warm color of brown, but it tends to have a greenish tinge sometimes, in some spots.

For this #30inks30days challenge, I’m going to use my Franklin Christoph Model 02 with a medium nib.

Write Until You Meet Yourself

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I was very young when I started writing in journals. My mother, being an introvert herself, bought me my first diary, and I took to it quite naturally. I was extremely uncommunicative with people, very rarely raising my voice to talk or make conversation, but I was expressive in my writings. On paper, my thoughts were easy to pour out.

Much of writing is unpacking ourselves from the tightly-wound package of public perception and social pressures. The deliberate act of putting words on paper requires a certain measure of introspection and openness.

Perhaps more importantly, when I write, I am brave. I open doors that I never opened before. I confront my ignorance and willingly accept self-correction. I ask myself those very difficult questions, and I am able to write down and face the answers, painstakingly thought out and laid down, letter by letter. I write honestly, without trying to cover anything up, without trying to make me look better. Without judgment.

In writing, I meet a version of myself. One that’s inaccessible outside the pages of my journals. Through the years, it has  been my safe space, helping me understand and love the person I meet through introspection and quiet meditation.

“Whether you’re keeping a journal or writing as a meditation, it’s the same thing. What’s important is you’re having a relationship with your mind.” – Natalie Goldberg